dear boys

So Elise is cool and does a fun linkup every week called Dear Boys, and it's awesome, and I'mma join in this week. 'Cos it's fun, and I have stuff to say.

Dear Cowboy,

Really? I just met you and I don't even get to try to know you better? BYU-I isn't even that great.... And it's far away. Stay, yeah?

Love,

Kira

Dear Flake,

Stop making me feel things for you. And also, just leave already. Or give me some positive feedback. That'd work too.

Love,

Kira

Dear Homie,

You're awesome, but I just don't feel that way. I enjoy being around you, but you should accept that I've moved and we can hang out when I visit.

Love,

Kira

Dear Teddy Bear,

I wasn't sure what I would think of you, but I am starting to think I might just like you. More than I thought I might. Also, we have an inside joke, and that's a good starting point. Right?

Love,

Kira

Dear Interjection and Roomies,

You're all way a lot attractive. Is it bad that I don't care that you're freshmen?

Love,
Kira

Dear BLT,

I kind of want to go for it... But I can't decide if that's because I actually like you or because I want to. It's a dilemma.

Love,
Kira

And last, but not least: 

Dear Logan,

I missed you so much. It's so good to be back. :)

Love, Kira

stake conference

I have not always been a fan of Stake Conference*.

In fact, I used to quite despise it. Two hours in the same room, with no break time to get up and walk around?

Ick.

This year, though, I had a change of heart. We had our first Stake Conference for my YSA** stake in October.

It was amazing! I had several friends who missed it and I was just sad for them because it was so great and they missed out on several wonderful messages.

Then, this past weekend, it came 'round again, and, though some roommates and friends groaned about it, I was actually excited!

I had lots of questions about things that I was going through, and, though I had been praying about them, I was still unsure of some of the answers. Guess what?
Every. Single. Question.
Answered.

The biggest one, I think, had to do with something I have really been struggling with lately.
Being around incredibly talented musicians all the time tends to make me reflect on my own talents. And... Not in a good way. Things like -
"I've played the piano for 14 years. Why can't I play like [insert name here]?" or
"I can't sing like [insert name here] can..." or
"I'll never be able to play the guitar like [insert name here]."
It's rather horrible, actually. I degrade my self and put myself down and focus on how everyone else is better than me at everything. I have struggled with this basically since the beginning of the school year - it's just too easy to feel inadequate around such incredible people.

Well, about a month ago, I was thinking about it and realized the love that my Savior has for me.
He suffered in the Garden of Gethsemane for my sins and afflictions, and then he died on the cross - for everyone, but for everyone individually. That means that he did it for me, individually.
When I realized that, I remember thinking, "If he loves me enough to do all of that for me, I ought to give myself a chance."
I thought that I had my answer there, but I continued putting myself down and feeling quite inadequate. A lot.

Fast forward to Stake Conference now. I am sitting in our Saturday night meeting, listening to one of our lovely leaders speak, when I hear him say something along the lines of:
"God loves all of His children. He loves you. He wants you to realize that you are enough."
And there it was, like a ton a bricks. All I could think about for the rest of the meeting was how everything that everyone else said supported that. I was so incredibly happy.
I am enough.

Though it is sometimes hard, we need to remember that life is not a competition.
It is not about being better, or even "as good as" other people.
In His sight, we are all equal.
We are all enough.

Anyway, moral of the story? Stake Conference is the bomb.com and I loooove it. Yup. :)
Peaaaace.

*Stake Conference is an LDS (Mormon) meeting that is held twice a year in individual stakes, which are made up of wards, which are made up people in a certain area. This is not the same as General Conference, though that is in a few weeks, and I love it. :)

**Young Single Adult

Tubular Tuesday?

Well. It's been a while.
I should be better at the MONDAY part of Marvelous Mondays. Haha. :)
Anyhow, here we go:

Things that I loved about today the last 2 weeks:

-As of the 3rd of this month, I am now an official adult!

-No more of that "parental permission even though you're in college" business!

-Finding the "Inception" soundtrack on Spotify. Ahhhh beauty.

Here's "Dream is Collapsing" for you. :)

-My super-pro Facebook stalking skills. Like... You have no idea how pro.

-I wrote letters to two missionaries! :) Just need to send 'em.

-I know this is old hat, but my Halloween costume!

Daniel - Skid Row, Me - Curiosity Killed the Cat, and Eric - Captain America
-Running alone and exploring Logan :)
-Roommates making dinner for the whole apartment!
-New music! Please give me suggestions - I LOOOOVE new music!
-Our pumpkins. Also a while ago, but I had to share because I love them! 

 Megan's!

 Mine!
-Laughing so hard that my sides ache. :)
-Being able to register for my classes before pretty much anyone and getting all the classes I wanted! Even though Honors is almost inherently evil, it does have pros.
-I get to do legit research on risk factors in eating disorders! So neat!
-Planking jokes, especially this one.

-My US Institutions class... I never thought I'd say that, but I enjoy it.

-A ridiculously cute boy in said class. :)
-Feeling "in shape"
 -First snow of the year in Logan!!!!!
 

-Running way longer than I planned and finding out I did five miles instead of two!

-Not having a cold anymore after getting two in a three-week period.

-Healthy food! Weird, right?

 -Google Chrome has the ability to "obliterate" browsing data from the beginning of time. ;)

-The people that live in my building. :)
-Group scripture study in the basement. Every night. I have the coolest friends ever!
-Underwear, especially when other clothes are missing. *Shudder*
-Pullin' a Julian Smith and trying hot koolaid! I quite like it!

 
 
-Making Josh and Daniel sparkle like horrible Stephanie-Meyerian vampires. It was preeeeetty hot.
-Flirting. 'Nuff said, hm?
-Nicknames

 -Visiting the fam!

And last, but not least,
-HUNGER GAMES TRAILERRR

That is all.

Marvelous Monday: {Back to School Edition}

So just a note here - This post was started last Monday, and finished just right now... So it's a hybrid. Haha. :) Two weeks together here. In my defense, I barely had time to breathe. Enjoy!


Guess what, y'all?

I started college!

Supas cool, right?

Yeah, pretty much. 

But before I get more into that, two things:

Awwww, little kids!

Awwww, cute proposal!

Men... You should be like Randy. :)

And also, I want to marry Kyle. What? I didn't say that.

Kid History is the best!

'Kay, commercial break over.

COLLEGE! :)

Things I loved about today:

-Umm hello, I started college! :)

-Music Therapy with Maureen Heaps... She's hilarious!

-Thinking about mantras

-Maxi dresses, or as Kari calls them, church pajamas

F21 $22.80

-Wearing dresses

-50 minutes classes!

-Finding thrifting buddies!

-Online window shopping!

-Going on adventures with old friends...

(Hannah!)

 

(Walker!)

-And with new ones. :)

 

(Alex!)

-This building (the Merrill-Cazier Library) 

-My roommates and neighbors :) 

(Lauren, Kaitlyn, Dalton, and Ben)

-The awesome things I find all around campus 

-Downtown Logan! Main street is the bomb. 

-Having days off of work, when I get to adventure with my friends even more :) 

(Eric!) 

(Alex and Eric drinkin' some tasty root beer) 

-Sitting on a couch outside a furniture store and waving at people in cars who are driving by. For an hour. :)

-Weird, quirky people who put signs like this in their yards 

-Wondering what this means 

-Family Home Evening (Ward style)! Dodgeball. With some extra rules. 

-These boys:

(Alex, Eric, and Daniel. Being creepsters.)

-This awesome collage. And also the school that it depicts. :) 

-This cool game that you play with just a cue and 8 pool balls! I fail at it. 

-Ending off the night with a fantastic movie. :) 

-Getting new clothing!

-Comfy clothes

-Wearing jeans instead of shorts because it's finally cool enough outside!

-Having my own practice room for an hour every weekday

-The fact that I get to play a Steinway to practice, even if it is an upright

-Having all music classes, except 2!

-Two Institute classes!

-New friends, old friends, and in between!

-Once again... Cute boys. :)

It all makes me feel like this:

(Only less grimace-y and more overjoyed)

Happy back to school, everybody. :)

Happy Monday!

Now that that's out of my system... Hi! 

I'm actually doing a Marvelous post this week. :)

And there's a lot to list, so here we go!

Things I loved about today this month:

-Food

-Meeting new people

-Comcast customers who aren't grumpy

-Zeitoun

-Getting my netbook back!

-Meeting cute boys ;)

-Student wards!

-The Golden Toaster

-Coolish temperatures

-Facebook stalking!

-Graduating training at work!

-Living on campus

-My coworkers

-People who call in with their Comcast problems and make jokes

-Finding the Logan thrift stores (D.I.!)

-Essie: e-nuf is e-nuf and turquoise&caicos

-Moving in!

-Utah State University... In general. :)

-Chilean neighbors!

-Old Main!

-The way I feel when I get off of work :)

-Being comfortable (physically and mentally)

-Laughing at myself :)

-Pinterest!

-Scriptures

-Knowing what I know

-My religion

-Jesus Christ, my elder brother and Savior :)

-Midnight food runs with mah friends. :)

-Eating chocolate for dinner

-Not having a curfew

-Thunderstorms (of epic proportions!)

-Life

-Liberty

-The pursuit of happiness

-This blog. :)

And all you lovely people. :)

I'm alive!

I realize that it hasn't actually been very long since my last post, but it really feels like it has been. I mean... No marvelous Monday? Whaaaat?

Let me just take a second to explain. :)

On Monday I packed up most of the rest of my room and moved up to Logan to live with my mom's cousin, Keli Nield, and her family (husband Ryck and kids Tanner (19) and Hannah (12)). 

I have already decided that Tanner is pretty much destined to be my newest best friend, because we're suuuuper similar. :) He even likes psychology. Winner, right there. :) 

Anyway, the whole family is fantastic. They've been so hospitable, and have really just taken me in and treat me like they do each other. It's been so great. :) 

Sadly my netbook, that I've had for a measly 2 weeks, got cracked on the way up here, so I've been out a computer. I'm currently using the Nield's family computer. 

'Cos they're awesome and said that I could. :)

Tuesday I had a little bit of stress right before work, but I got it all sorted out and got to work right on time! :) I was pretty nervous about the job and everything. At first, that is. 

Once I got in there, my trainer, JD, set me at ease within just the first few minutes. 

He is great, as is every member of my training class! In fact, my class is so great that we're an entire day ahead in our training. Yeah. That's right. We're cool. ;)

You know what? It's only been 5 days, and I already have friends that I know I'll keep for a long time; maybe even for life! The people really are fantastic. 

I'm actually excited to learn more, and to take calls, and just to come to work in general. :) 

Get this- My team lead (on the call floor. Essentially... My supervisor/boss) wears sweater vests. 

He's legit. :) And his name is Tannin. Imma always spell it with a ' at the end, so it's Tannin'. :)

Anyway, that's my update for now. I'm heading home in the morning for church and then we're off to Powder Mountain until Monday sometime. I shall try to post an MM, but if I don't...

I'll write one up and post it later. Haha. :) 

Have I ever mentioned that if you're reading my blog, I love you? 

I have? Oh. Well... I'll just say it again then. :) 

You people are awesome.

So much love.